I was now silent for a while ...
It's time to narrate here again.

The time we're in is a time of big changes. I myself have gone through a lot of personal work.



Perhaps I was so quiet because of that. I had to finish, sort and cleanse.

It was a good time too. Many visions of the future, much new knowledge, much information that just fell down in my brain.

Now I am who I am today ...

It is a busy year. Many people notice this. But many do not know why or do not even understand that fact. They experience their world as they always have experienced it. A matrix of matter where they engage themselves. They forget everything that is not possible to touch, even their own feelings. They experience only the "reality".

But what is real? The world and the humans are changing. It is time to realize that we need to keep up with this changes. Nothing can stop it, not even ignorance.
Not everyone wants to be on this way. All humans do not even see  the way. That is a choice too.

The world as most people experiencing it will disappear. They will slowly but surely discover that the boundaries are not where they were before. Slowly, people will open up to new worlds and new experiences. What I usually tell of will be perceived by an increasing group of people. Everyone will discover their inner senses. That will enable a different experience of the world. 

Faith. We must overcome our faith in order to see. Faith confines reality experience. Scientists have begun to talk about that. Physicists and biologists who recognized the limitations of the old paradigms.

It is time for a paradigm shift.

Even a materialist or "scientific" world view is faith. Has anyone been able to prove that ghosts do not exist? Has anyone been able to prove that it is impossible to practice telepathy? Has anyone been able to prove that you can not use your inner senses to experience? If someone can prove to me that my world is not in the way I experience it this person is probably a future Nobel Prize winner ...

I have "felt the rain" for a long time now not just getting wet.

The experience of flying high above the forest, hovering with an eagle ...
Is it equivalent to doing magic on earth?
A question my friend a spirit shaman just formulated ...

Yes, it certainly is. You will float over patterns. You will rise above our reality, see what available structures there are and establish new ones.

Just by this words the danger appears huge.

Changing structures can be both good and disastrous. Down here in our reality, it can be nearly impossible to see the consequences of such a change.

To move mountains ... Yes, absolutely - why not ...
It may be moving mountains if you change something unchangeable hard and painfull in a person's reality into something beautiful and healing.

You can not always do that either, even if you would like to ... It is rarely the person who is the limit. Moving mountains have rules and restrictions. Otherwise, you end up on the wrong side.

And why do peoples so easily go into the darkness instead of the light?
Why are no major barriers in the dark direction?
Why can people talk negativly without making a fool of themselves, while it may seems embarrassing to say the word love?

Humanity is probably a mystery in many ways ...

Floating into the magics light hall far above human habitations is a wonderful pleasure ... close to home

What a beautiful moon we had this weekend! Great with the nice energies!

And how strange that they needed to call in extra staff at the gynecological clinic  ;o)

It's always rush to birth at full moon, but it was extra fun to be born this weekend.

Got me by the way a good laugh reading in a newspaper that according to science we are not affected at all by the moon  : o) 

Always fun! There's no study, perhaps ?

When I worked in the maternity ward in Germany, it was obvious that they were prepared for a lot of work a full moon night, but there is probably no statistics on that?

When I worked with teenagers in school it was chaos already the day before full moon.

People have forgotten to keep track of the moon - that's probably the reason ...

It´s strange and interesting that the world's population follows a wave of themes that comes and goes.
In any case, I thought about it many times recently.
Courage, anxiety etc., everything goes in waves. 

Persons I meet over a period carries similar themes. The news from the world offers the same opportunities for insights. All are committed.

Great theme of 2012 seems to be to clean out old stuff. People are aware of what they may feel bad of and begins to change things and resolve old connections.

They sort attic or basement, sort old piles of paper and simultaneously enter into a journey where memories will be reprocessed and resolved.
This is probably just what we need to do this year.

Many persons gets aware of the systems they stucked in...
Always the same type of experience - why?
What is it one should learn from these experiences?
How do you avoid ending up in exactly the same pattern again?

Don´t ignore your emotions. All emotions will tell us something. They have a message, clear or less clear, but readable.
If you are pushing off your emotions, you can´t see the insights they can give to you.
If you, instead of that, go into the feelings and examine the pesky contexts you begin to imagine or may be see clearly in front of you, you may heal a part of you.

Mother Earth begins to wake up on the surface in the north, so people soon will become calmer inside up here.

Took a break from the blog. It's probably something to be expected: o)
The writing comes sometimes. Not every day not every week.
But quite often I end up here anyway.

Now it's going on a lot. Many changes.

New Moon
A fresh start. Something that has been completed and new things starting up.
In contrast to the full moon the weight is now clearly on new.
On full moon is the weight of something that is done and finished.

This new moon is special to me. I look forward moving home all my dear helpers and objects and all my energies to our own little house. Here my sun wheel will spin and spread out.

The force may remove the handbrake at home, which it have to pull in my old room.

To bring home my energies is one of the themes that were included in the first months of this year. I have completed some accounts on the internet and said goodbye to forums where I wrote long time ago. Now begins a new era and I will collect myself instead of being out in the world with my energies.

It's exciting to see what comes next.

I'll have a new friend and helper. A new wand to the one I already have, not to replace but to supplement.

It is, I think, what my son told me two years ago, when he was 6 years old: 

"When I'm grown up, Mom, then I also have a wand and you'll have two." 

Children are so wise. They know so much. Listen to your children!

I will create now and that I will do with great joy.

On a walk through the forest with my friend next to me. The elf who is so wise and giving so much warmth and closeness.
Ice melting on the tarn. Stones telling their own story.
Living nature.

I can agree with the puppy when he gets excited about that there is so much out there.

The delight to walk the own path in freedom is great right now.

A quiet morning - now when the family has left the house...A silence you can hear ...I have experienced so much in recent years.

Now a new chapter begins.

The first steps on the shaman path are behind me since long time ago. Now I'm standing on top of a hill looking out over both past and future.

The shaman way leads through the darkness to the light. The wounded healer. I do not feel hurt. I let go of what has happened before. Only remember the beautiful moments. I always have been like that. I have to reflect on the past to face the darkness that was there. That is how it should be. Why would you carry around old things, finished and healed?

Yet there they were. The near death experience that everyone is talking about talking shamanism. Heavy days and nights, heavy with memories and sorrows. So as there are for many people, yet different.

I experienced on a different way. I was conscious also on the other side. I heard things, I did not understand by myself, from my friends out there. The spirit shaman, forest elves and others, very helpful friends, who through insights helped me to heal.

Each shaman has his own way, makes his own footsteps on the path of life. Why would they be the same if we are so different?I experience myself as a person with a great deal guidance and protection from the very beginning. Maybe I look at myself in this way because I had such a great original trust in me since childhood.

When I was a young woman, just 19 years, expressed a friend  that she was surprised that I always assumed that everything would be fine in the end. I had such enormous confidence.

Of course, I had survived, just two years earlier ... Perhaps that affects my experience of reality. I faced death and left him behind me.

Perhaps that is why many people worked on making me lose confidence. Makes me "realize" that I need to do much more on my one. I should not "put that into my head" that I always just could ask for help and get it too ...

Oh yes, that's exactly what I still have in my head. They could not get that out of me. I ask for help and I get it.

I live with a deep gratitude, an enormous gratitude, humility and respect. Gratitude for my confidence never breaking down and for my receiving so much help every day in my life.

Gratitude also for me having the pleasure to convey this to other people through my work and for allowing me to pass on help so many times and with it a little bit or maybe a great deal of confidence.