A quiet morning - now when the family has left the house...A silence you can hear ...I have experienced so much in recent years.

Now a new chapter begins.

The first steps on the shaman path are behind me since long time ago. Now I'm standing on top of a hill looking out over both past and future.

The shaman way leads through the darkness to the light. The wounded healer. I do not feel hurt. I let go of what has happened before. Only remember the beautiful moments. I always have been like that. I have to reflect on the past to face the darkness that was there. That is how it should be. Why would you carry around old things, finished and healed?

Yet there they were. The near death experience that everyone is talking about talking shamanism. Heavy days and nights, heavy with memories and sorrows. So as there are for many people, yet different.

I experienced on a different way. I was conscious also on the other side. I heard things, I did not understand by myself, from my friends out there. The spirit shaman, forest elves and others, very helpful friends, who through insights helped me to heal.

Each shaman has his own way, makes his own footsteps on the path of life. Why would they be the same if we are so different?I experience myself as a person with a great deal guidance and protection from the very beginning. Maybe I look at myself in this way because I had such a great original trust in me since childhood.

When I was a young woman, just 19 years, expressed a friend  that she was surprised that I always assumed that everything would be fine in the end. I had such enormous confidence.

Of course, I had survived, just two years earlier ... Perhaps that affects my experience of reality. I faced death and left him behind me.

Perhaps that is why many people worked on making me lose confidence. Makes me "realize" that I need to do much more on my one. I should not "put that into my head" that I always just could ask for help and get it too ...

Oh yes, that's exactly what I still have in my head. They could not get that out of me. I ask for help and I get it.

I live with a deep gratitude, an enormous gratitude, humility and respect. Gratitude for my confidence never breaking down and for my receiving so much help every day in my life.

Gratitude also for me having the pleasure to convey this to other people through my work and for allowing me to pass on help so many times and with it a little bit or maybe a great deal of confidence.

A new day ... 

It's been a while since I wrote here. 

Instead of this I enjoyed the quietness of nature. I sat quiet in my mind at a small lake. Snow, ice and SILENCE ... 

The silence and the power of the lake I felt throughout the whole body. Was brought out of my thoughts by our little puppy dog ​​that barked at forest elves scaring him. Wonderful experiences. 

The old family farm with an old lovely relative who came to visit from the other side was another part of the holiday. She started an old "broken" cuckoo clock and filled the house with love. The whole family enjoyed.

Now here I am again writing... Lets see where it leads.

 The shaman way goes through death. Facing death is a part of my life. Both in the meeting with the angel of death or death as an energy and as an experience of the body. But even by the departed relatives of my clients or myself.

Death is very much a part of life. Many of our western societies are trying to forget this. If you look at life as I do, it's not scary to die. It is simply to walk across a border. I cross the line sometimes. Without my body, it can not do it ;o)

I cross the border to enter the "memories" from other lives or the time between lives, alone or with a client. There is much help for us there to understand and accept this life and experiences here in a better and different way. There is much help for us there to heal ourselves.

 One time I faced death in the guise of Azrael. What a wonderful friend we have in him. You could call him by many names. Azrael is the name that the abrahamic religions have given him. Another name is Toth and another Hel. Just choose, no matter how you call the personalities on the other side if it feels right for you.
Our religions and cultures have given entities names. All names also have energy and they are linked to the events, beliefs and cultures on earth. So if you call Hel, the energy will be different from the energy of Toth.

My encounter with Azrael was really nice. The port you are talking about sometimes. Peoples have been there and came back again. Those who were released up to tell us about it when they returned. Those who wouldn't really go, but only meet. The others will go another way.

Azrael stood in all its beauty in front of the gate. The light and warmth. We talked for a while.

"You know the way" he told me. Just come when you're done.
Yes, I'll do that. Let's see when it will be. I think I will stay a long time.
Once you have come past all the difficulties at the beginning of the road, it is worth to stay for a while.

Slowly it becomes light outside. The birds are singing, although it is a white winter landscape outside the window.The energies have become lighter again. The first new moon period this year was heavy. Now it will be easier.

Reading the news makes you shaking your head at people's paths.You just have to realize that the roads are different and the goals are not the same.

Mother Earth gets much help from people all over the world. There are ceremonies and people are praying. All good thoughts will help.

I sat here yesterday and thought of writing a bit. Why? I think this blog will be more interesting in the future. There will be a kind of newscast from the other side but not the usual channeling stories.I'm not exactly angel medium :o)

My way is different. Heavier some people says about the shaman way. Many people believes that we are more earth-bound in a heavy way. I have even heard that someone thought that shamans do not get that far up in frequency as a medium does. Yes, there are many opinions. A few really knows and many people have opinions.

What am I as a shaman and how am I and how is my world? Different, I would answer to all these questions.Shamans stand with one foot in each world someone said. How many feets have shamans, I thought :o)

Mediate from the other side is a part of my work. There are many other parts.Another one is to act in the human energy fields to help her to heal herself. I then also mediate the insight she needs to let go and not to go back into the negative. This is another part of my work - medicine woman.The shaman who knows, who sees in the dark, medicine man, priest, magician, the skilled in magic, a threat and a help. Throughout history we have had many names and many titles. Many times they have persecuted us, many times they have honoured us. But always the shaman was standing a little outside of society and was at the same time part of it. Someone who was not like other people. 

It's lonely here, I usually say. But it is not. Never alone. I am not alone. But few humans can understand how I live and how my world looks like. There are few people I can talk "shamanistic" with.Since I started shaman path consciously, I have changed. Changed many times over and over again.Facing yourself is transformational.